Current blog look inspired by, dedicated to, and in memory of Brut. The studded star of the 24 Paws of Love.
Friday, March 18, 2011
How can I actually put in words how I feel when most of our discussions are without them? How do I describe the force of nature you are that catapults me into action, be it a need for a walk or your controlling nature to have things your own way? Is there really a way to say how much I have needed you in my life, though if I'd known what bringing you home entailed, I don't know if I would have followed through with it? For how was I to know I was receiving the gift of a dog with the attitude of a tiger that would teach me the blessings of respect for that fierceness in your heart? You demanded respect above all else that would force me to rise to a higher level of understanding you and myself. A respect that can't be measured but that is truly honored. For you have taught me more about myself than any human could begin to. It became more than an understanding between us, it was as if we were torn from the same cloth.
I had never realized the depths that a canine and human could have until you came into my life. We have both been torn by a civilized world and our wild instinct with a desperate craving to be ourselves . Somehow for those moments when we are leashed together we experience that inner freedom through each other and what some day lies ahead. Together we posses a beautiful instinct to live, a rare gift when we are able to let the beast in us exist. We both hunger for the release and the right to express ourselves.
There are no lies in who you are and it is that raw energy that I fear in you that I also embrace. You have taught me how to harness that energy without destroying it and I will always love you for that. There is no comfort greater in this world than you having my back. You have brought out a strength in me that I didn't know I had. You have taught me how to use it without force but with recognition. You are more than just my buddy or pal, you are my canine soul-mate, here for a purpose and reason. How can I begin to thank you for just being here when everything you have given me has been more than just being here? What a rare and treasured gift you are and thank God there is only one of you! :)
Forever Brut, I love you.