Now that Brut's anniversary has passed, the hurt is slowing melting away. It is time to move pn with his spirit into tomorrow. I'll never stop missing him, but I know Brut is only a heartbeat away from me. A heartbeat I will always treasure forever.
Maybe you heard that we have 5 other dogs? lol Seems like it's been eons since I wrote about them. We have been spending a lot of time together, bonding even closer than before.
It's really hard to put into words what Zappa, Fiona, Silver, Chance and Blaze have meant to me going through this grieving process. In part because they all are a part of Brut being their father and Silver his girlfriend. But it is as if Brut is still here and is being the good leader he tried to be. We have all grown together, richer and stronger because of Brut, of having him in our lives and it is a beautiful thing, watching 4 puppies really mature and grow together as a family. Even with the separation of two packs.
They have become fuller as if sucking in Brut's spirit. They are more confident and compassionate. Some of their fears and anxieties died with Brut, as if given a second chance. There is a wholeness to them as if Brut's death gave them the last missing pieces to their souls. And there is joy and happiness, more peace and more hope, as if they are really getting the chance to live.
I think Brut is proud of his kids and Silver.
Almost as much as I am.
Brut resonates through them and around them, while not overshadowing the kids and Silver's own personalities and uniqueness.
It is one of the most beautiful things I have witnessed this past year and I have been so blessed to be a part of their transformation. I'm so very grateful for all that has happened. They bring a richness to my life that can never be taken away, just when I think God can't blow my mind any more than He does. He gives me these beautiful creatures to share in my life as we grow together.
Beautiful, isn't it? :)
Current blog look inspired by, dedicated to, and in memory of Brut. The studded star of the 24 Paws of Love.