Blue jay on my homemade bird feeder
That's when the healing box opened up and I talked with Luigi. I needed him to forgive me, so I could forgive myself about his death.and he did. So I was able to forgive myself.
That was this past spring. I still couldn't bring myself to feed the birds. It took me seven months and a lot of back and forth deciding. My hubby, Mark, also aided to my dilemma. He found a couple of bird feeders in the dumpster, both like brand new and brought them home, not knowing my emotional turmoil to use them or not.