I think I'm in the final phases of accepting the loss of Chance, Blaze and Fiona. It struck me on and off throughout last summer, fall and this winter that it is just us three, Mark, Zappa and I. And the closer the three of us bond the more apparent it is. Our pack has gotten stronger and stronger, in ways I would have never thought possible. I don't even know if I can explain it, but Zappa is like having all the dogs put together in him. We are tighter than we have ever been and we are living and breathing on that strength. A bond I would have never thought could happen, between Zappa and I, is happening.
And I still can't believe it!