Current blog look inspired by, dedicated to, and in memory of Brut. The studded star of the 24 Paws of Love.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
the Brut Truth
We brought him home at six weeks. After two days I was terrified of this little monster and didn't think I could follow through with him for an entire lifetime. If I tell you his behavior, it will sound like normal puppy behavior, but his eyes told a completely different story. They were wild and crazed. Something about him wasn't right. I was in tears many times because I didn't know what to do with him. Brut was the most difficult puppy I'd ever come across in my life. I have never been scared of dogs or puppies before, but I was scared of Brut.
His aggression was right on the surface of his skin and tore through my fears. Every day I was on the fence about wanting to keep him and yet I could never give him up. I couldn't do that to him or myself. As our bond grew and I began to make small breakthroughs in my fear of him, he in turn began to teach me about himself. When he was a year and half old a broke up a fight and he showed me his "aggressive spirit." I looked into those eyes and was shocked to see not a killer that I thought was there, but a tortured, pained soul begging for help. That was when I began to understand Brut. It was the first he had really shown himself to me and it was the first that I was able really see.
Brut and I were bonded the from the first time I saw him. A connection that was raw but unbroken and now I am so proud of this beautiful dog that I have the honor to say is mine. A gift from heaven that I have been truly blessed with. When I thought the answer was to give up, somehow Brut showed me how to believe and changed my life forever.
For a more in depth version of this turning point between Brut and I you can read: A Little Bit About Brut and Me