Mommy Silver and Zappa at one week old.
When we got Silver we planned on her having puppies. For those first four years before she got pregnant, Silver and I were instinctively in tune with each other. I could just think her name and she would be at my side or at the door ready to come in. There was an intense bonding when she was pregnant and became a mother. No more different than any mother would be if their own daughter was pregnant. When we had her spayed after having the puppies, it was like the bottom fell out. She was five years old and I felt like I'd "lost" her. Besides the physical problems she was having due to lack of hormones, there was an emptiness in her that made it difficult to reconnect with her. It was if she lost part of her soul when that surgery was done and it took away the higher consciousness we had together.
Silver has always been a moody dog, but the sparkle never left her eyes, until she made that trip to the vet. It was heartbreaking watching this beautiful dog's spirit dying before our eyes. I had no idea the traumatic impact this would have on her. Silver was born to be a mother. Everything in her being was made for it and when we took that away from her, it was more than just an organ being removed, it was the center of her being.
It wasn't until almost a year after the surgery that she began to bounce back little by little. Silver had lost the extra weight she had gained and her fur loss had diminished. Her mothering sensitivity and nurturing care slowly began to show itself again. She began to open to me and wanted to take care of me again, but that strong intuition had lost its previous intensity we had together before she was spayed. She still knew before I did when I needed her, but now these were only moments of time. I miss the electricity that was once there between us and I find myself a little saddened by once was.
It makes you wonder, when we spay and neuter what we may be taking away from our animals and our relationship with them. Maybe this is the reason Brut and I are so utterly in tune with each other and how we understand each others vibes. If you really look at it, these procedures are not a natural act of nature. There is more to these organs than just reproduction, it is a creation of who we are. If you look at it without the basic need to procreate, it is the most natural state of being for any creature. Hormones are not the evil of life, they are the very being of creation. Neither of us would be here or our animals without them.
There is such a hard argument to stop unwanted pregnancies, which I agree with, but have you ever stop to think what else you may be taking away?
**DISCLAIMER**-This post is neither for or against neutering and spaying, it is only my observation and personal opinion.
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